Tuesday, July 29, 2014

A Humble Request To My Readers

As some of you may know, I have written a book based on this blog and it is currently in the process of being edited for publishing.  My request to you, dear readers, is this: 

If my writing has inspired you, caused you to reexamine the way life shows up for you, or have been affected positively in some way by my writing (widow, widower, or no) I would be honored to hear about your experience as a reader.  I request, and invite you, to share with me your thoughts about my blog and how it has played a part in your own personal journey through life.

If you are inclined to accept this request, please send all comments and correspondence about your experiences to:

twodropsintheocean_blog@yahoo.com

At the discretion of my editor, some comments may be selected to be published as testimonials for the body of work that is my blog.  If your submission is selected, you will be contacted and your permission will be requested to include your comments in the publication of my book.

As always, it is with immense gratitude that I thank you for your support.  I feel your presence and I continue to be moved.

Be well, my loves. 

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Patience is a Virtue, Right?

Things are really happening.  I'm seeing patients in our school clinic, I'm wrapping up my second year of my masters degree, I finally had the courage, love and self respect to post a picture of myself (on the internet!) in a bikini... so many amazing things.  And yet I still feel like things could be better if I had a boyfriend.

And then, when I think that, when I say that I get so frustrated with myself.  Why can't all of these other exciting things be enough?  And it's not because I need a man.  It's because I want a man.  I want to share all of this awesomeness intimately with someone.  It would make everything else that much sweeter (I think?)  Ugh.

I know I need to live in the moment.  I do.  And I also believe deep down that I am personally hard-wired to share.  To me it makes things worth doing.  I have taken a hard look at my self.  I have gone down to my depths; have looked into nothing and created something.  I have faced my demons and made peace with them (we're totally friends now).  I am following my wildest dreams and I am flourishing.  (I mean, I bought myself a fucking bikini!  How much more free can I get?)  I am embracing myself and I continue to work hard to be a positive force in the world.

So the big question now is...

What is God, The Universe, whatever waiting for?  I feel ready, so what gives?  I've never been a patient woman.  I'd better start practicing.